again blog...

一个月回一次家，对，我念家 我粘家...也因为这样觉得很对不起男朋友....他知道我很粘家想家，几乎每个月都会回家乡一两天...回家也没有干嘛，就呆在家看戏，吃妈妈煮的菜煲的汤，听爸爸说些琐碎的事....虽然没什么，但是可以感觉得到他们老了...每次回家的一个冰淇淋，一碗汤，觉得回家真好...什么都不需要想不需要烦....但是只要爸爸妈妈问起在工作上和金钱上的问题心里就有点惭愧...总觉得自己没有想象中的做得好...所定下的目标还很远很远...果然老人家说的人算不如天算...很多小意外的发生，都会打断了原本的计划...社会真的不简单...工作了快一年，很好奇我的manager是怎样在短短的不到十年时间从普通职员做到现在这个位置...而且他不是第一个例子了...还有在KL的manager也是，我老板是个怎样的人？跟他工作虽然会觉得有时被逼得很紧，但是这就是职场 社会，做东西要快很准才能比别人快点得到所想要的东西...虽然我在短短的几个月就可以上到assistant这个位子，但是我觉得这只是我的幸运，因为新店开张不久很需要到人的关系...这一年，的确学了很多...但是我需要学习的还有更多....最近有机会升，有点担心怕应付不来...新店还没装修好就出现了很多问题...虽然不需要我负责什么，但，心里有种罪恶感....而且之前有消息老板要开新店，有来太平看...现在也变到没有消息去....顺其自然吗？.....只希望自己可以累积经验收更多更多，加强自己的自我毅力和能力...
计划存钱明年的生日让自己去某某岛屿度假，
计划存钱五年的时间希望能有自己的一间房子，
计划存钱等到26岁才打算要嫁人什么的，
计划存钱的事情真的有很多....真的不希望这三个最在意的计划不会被打断...
21岁了，还有不到半年就22岁了...真的不小了...社会的变化太快太残忍了...不再是有梦想就能存活下来的社会了...

hi, again blogging...nothing special, just working working and working...got friends ask "why you dun wan get other job? does you study mass comm?"...yes, im. but myself cant work like mass comm... im not healthy like others, sometime im afraid to myseslf. i dunno when i will fainting... when i fainting, others will dunno wat can do on me? they hv know nothing about my healthy...
but since i hv working for JS, 8 months and more...i like my colleague... if you ask me to leave, i think i will miss them...maybe, if all of them leaving ady than i will choose leave too. i wish they wont leave, they are quite funny and friendly...
my relation? yes, we are alright... some time like best friend some time like couple... i also not sure does he will be my mr.right?...hope he can be...we still fighting for future, a better life... for parents and for us... what will be happen in the future, no one can know about it... one thing we only can do is fighting for...

 

saja again...

just now phone my mom, got chat awhile...my sis is going to genting tonight, so my home(taiping wan) just leave my parents... all are going out station for work ady... and first time heard my mom say, "ur dad this noon talk with me, our child all growing up ady... all of them going out station working... now our house just leave both of us lao lang ge liao..."... i hv no idea, my tear almost come out from my eye... yes, my parents is be come older and older...my mom 56 and my dad is 58 now... i dunno i still can hv how many years together with them... just, i wan my parent always be healthy and happy... dun too worry bout us ady... we can handle ourself daddy, cos we are ur daughter right~

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hi, just meet with old school friend just now... my buddies~ but got one almost hv 14 years friendship ady i think... still can chit chat non-stop...felt amazed, cos we are in the separate classes when secondary school.... actually i like the feeling just now~ feel cherish about it... the chinese say "when 3 women together, that will be like a market"... ermmmm.......yes, i admit. we hv more then 3 just now~XD
suddenly i remember last time we also got make a lot crazy thing together.... same ppl...(but got one more at singapore now). singing loud at the avanza~ singing for a lorry~ hang out here and there~ same maybe will bit childish~ ya~ that were us~ last time~but now all ady 21...maybe~will be mature abit ady la~(dunno >< maybe?)

rendom updated

hi, just wanna write bout something...something not special...something we have done......just write something~

feel that my language is getting poor now...somethime i need used a "transleter"...gosh~~i think is time to force me using english all time again...also can help him improve his english too~XD...

last night we have chit chat until tired and fall in sleep... am i look like 15/16 years old something?... im 21 now, but look like 15/16 something, thinking like 30 something (means mature la)... sometime i realize i am... and he also agree that i am...

whats the reason make me change into this way?... maybe my mom? maybe my buddy?...yes, i think because of them i have change alot right now... mom always told me alot, her own life thoeries~ sometime is bored, but it is work when you think bout it into ur own... my buddy, he has told me how the real society is... even i cant accept it, but is society is work like this way...i have to force myself go with this way also... is hard for me...

我知道我是一個依賴性很強的人，一旦有另一半就會無時無刻都粘在他身邊...改掉這個壞習慣？...有點難度，給點時間吧...我會試著盡量去改...但是，你不可以有要背叛我的心...

hi, im back now..

Now only realize that almost two month i din come to update my blog...im not busy until din have the free time,just lazy going out after work ..... that was lot thing happen in this two month,my 21birthday was pass like nothing special. But it was enough for me to have two best friend bought a small cake for me...officially 21 now...
Second, that was an unhappy happens between my two close friends...i cant believe that was the real thing. Why they wan to lie on me?hiding something on me ? What for to doing this all on me?小孩子的事情搞到大人也介入,希望事情可以平息。有必要吗?明明是小孩子的事?搞到大人也操心?为什么就不能成熟点?孩子不在父母身边这已经让他们大人不放心了,可是孩子们却让父母更加的操心...谁对谁错都已经是过去式了,难道就不能让它过去?要一直不停的提起,让事情没有平息的一天?...
Thirdly, im just realize we have passing six month ann. May is the 7th month ady, but im sure he wont realize this at all...SAD... not a romantic guys...  maybe we working everyday, just rest for one day. sometime will forget something important too...
Since im working, last friday is my second time kena food poison and MC...vomit two time when working, after going back home hv go for see a doctor(again).. Midnight, after taking medicine vomit again... He din sleep early, sit beside take care of me...feel sorry to him... the next day morning, KENA lagi... wake up feel very uncomfortable, like last time when wanna fainting... start drumming in the ear, hand and feet paralysis... no buddy at pg, cos is saturday... my buddy working, dunno to trouble him... ask him call mom, told my parent im not feeling well again, wanna go to hospital...SO, im again be in hospital, 吊点滴！I hate the needle inject in my hand! almost 24 hour in the hospital... mom and dad reach hospital ady afternoon... he do the procedure for me until mom coming... he acc me whole day, until midnight 12 the nurse come in... I hv to stay alone tonight at hospital~ my first time ><
Now, im MC at my hometown "Enjoy" my 5 day MC given my doctor. Tmr will be going back pg, friday gonna working ady... sorry to get trouble for my colleague my supervisor my family and my bf... and thanks for those care for me (sorry for making you all shock><)...
A good news for me, im 45 kg now...(but is not in a healthy condition)...hais~
thats all, long time din typing ady...all my language "fail" now ><.... bye~

《新年》

很久沒有在這裡post了...自從做工以來已經很少上網了，就連broadband也沒有用了～

十二月回家一次後就一直到華人年二十八才回來太平過新年！很久沒有回家了，回到家的感覺真爽...我，還是這麼的"念家"...沒辦法離開家裡到更遠的地方工作...而且這一次的新年，我變"乖"很多了...去年的新年我幾乎初一到初三都有在喝酒什麼的，反而今年我只"品嚐"了一口的葡萄酒！就連我自己也覺得我太奇蹟了！還有，也不再每天出到半夜才回家...我"轉性"了？！

或許是出來做工了，很少時間可以呆在家還是什麼的...回到來都不會說很想出去玩到很瘋狂然後半夜回家...又或許是我真的老了21歲了，開始變得不再那麼有精力和活力了...這算長大了嗎？...團圓飯那一晚吃飽後幫媽媽在廚房洗碗碟，媽媽突然說了一句話讓我心裡有一些感觸..."我是不是很久沒有回家吃飯了？""我是不是很久沒有在廚房幫媽媽忙了？"

房間的衣櫥裡，有一件媽媽幫我車的一件橙黑的連身裙...很美，初一到現在我都不捨得拿來穿...都忘了是什麼時候開始媽媽已經沒有幫我們車新衣服了...現在年紀大了，還幫我車一件連身裙子...溫暖牌，全世界僅僅一件，獨一無二...

明天就要回去檳城了，後天開工...我也是時候回去了，新年拿了三天假期...有點對不起店裡面的同事...尤其是我們的supervisor～

今年的新年，很平淡，但是很開心～而且在大年初一的第一時間，全家人玩起了自拍全家福～現在看會照片，"幸福" + "溫馨"～

最後，在此祝大家：

新年快樂～心想事成～身體健康～萬事如意～

還有！記得，家是永遠的溫暖窩～